Below is a link to a blog called 101 Reasons to Stop Writing. It is a blog about writing and actually does have a list of reasons to stop, which, when one considers the amount of verbiage being generated by the human race, might seem like an impossible challenge. Those of us with presumptions to actually be writers–professional, that is, receiving coin for our sentences–are afflicted, I think, with a singular mix of obsession and insecurity.
There is, however, no Twelve-Step Program for us, and even if there were, the initial admittance–that we are powerless to control the urge to run out streams of words on the off-chance someone might actually read them (or, more, enjoy them)–means for us that we are subsequently powerless to continue with the 12-step. But, on the other hand, explaining our affliction, paradoxically, feeds the monkey–more words. And explaining to each other about our affliction sustains us in times when we feel ignored by those who only read what we write. We are subject to puzzled bemusement by people who “don’t understand”; made sometimes to feel guilty by people who want us to come out and play who, when told we are busy writing, complain that we’re not doing anything.
Writing requires both solitude and congeniality–to write about people, we must know them, but we are by nature prone to misanthropy. The more we know people, sometimes, the less we like them, yet we must be sympathetic lest we ostracize the very public we need to support our habit.
But enough about me. I have fiction to write. I shall leave you all with the analysis.
The following is from Reason #7. Pretty amazing stats:
Click here for Reason #7. Then again, these skewed statistics make me wonder how much of the disparity is due to the way the publishing/distribution industry works. It's full of biases. for example, I once read that a famous well-published author agreed to submit one of his manuscripts under a false name to see if it could garner any interest from publishers. None.
Here's what Nietzsche had to say on the compulsion to write:
The Gay Science, Section 93.
Getting "rid" of one's thoughts does sound like compulsion. But what if Nietzsche really meant "processing," rather than deleting? That's more in line with what I experience.
I don't know if I would term my writing "compulsive," though others would. I beat myself up too much to make myself write. I would bet that I've spent 2 hours each day writing since establishing this blog 11 months ago.
I don't think I'm a compulsive writer, but I am a compulsive wonderer. I find that writing forces me to sharpen the way I think to the extent that my written words don't embarrass me. I use writing to discipline my thoughts. My audience is primarily myself, because I consider myself to be a cautious and methodical learner–a good test case. If it works for me, maybe it works for others. But then, maybe I'm admitting here that I'm trying to write for others, really. Of course I am! It brings pleasure to know that others find something useful in my written words. It's similar to learning that your spoken words have been useful to someone, though potentially timeless.
One more (scattered) thought. If you read most books or sites on how to be a writer, they encourage every aspiring writer to not give up. A few who haven't given up have become wonderful well-known writers. Good thing they didn't give up, right? This article and list Jason directs us to is sobering–not encouraging to most writers. Perhaps it's needed medicine for most of us. Perhaps it will set some of us free. The math just doesn't support all of our dreams to be writers. If we all wrote, who would have time to read? Who would have time to live? After all, we can't all write to large audiences. That is a pyramid scheme mentality.
Well, all of this has made me too self concsious to write. I'm off to go read a book . . .
The Bookscan technology is interesting. It's a computerized database fed directly from cash register sales, so it counts actual customer purchases. This is still a distortion, since many independent booksellers are not linked to the system, but it's closer than many other "estimates" based on distribution vs returns, etc. An informal sruvey among some writers I know–on both ends of that bell curve–seems top support the PW report. Depressing. What it means for me is that I am slightly above average in book sales. I should move to Lake Wobegon.
Jason's post continues to haunt me. Yes, I want to be a good writer and I am surrounded by other people who would very much like to get a book published. Jason's post primed me for an article by another good writer, Anne Lamott. Here is Lamott's straight-shooting advice for aspiring writers (from Salon.com):
For the full article, click here.