You may find this interesting re. humans (and all nature) as fractal energy patterns:

Providing ratios of 100:1 or greater, fractals are especially suited to natural objects, such as trees, clouds and rivers. Fractals turn an image into a set of data and an algorithm for expanding it back to the original.

Stemming from "fractus," which is Latin for broken or fragmented, the term fractals was coined by IBM Fellow and doctor of mathematics Benoit Mandelbrot, who expanded on ideas from earlier mathematicians and discovered similarities in chaotic and random events and shapes. Mandelbrot determined that there are repeating patterns in the architecture of nature.

"Nature uses a few simple, self-similar, and repeating patterns– fractals –to build energy and atoms into the familiar forms of everything from roots, rivers, and trees, to rocks, mountains, and us."

Bibliography

See B. B. Mandelbrot, The Fractal Geometry of Nature (1983); K. J. Falconer, Fractal Geometry: Mathematical Foundations and Applications (1990); H.-O. Peitgen, H. Jurgens, and D. Saupe, Chaos and Fractals: New Frontiers of Science (1992).

And you may find this link interesting re. the Holographic Universe Theory, which is related to the Superstring Theory in Quantum Physics:

en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Holographic_principle

Not so "fuzzy" imo.

]]>I often feel "smeared out", mentally dissolved into my environment (extending outside of my bodily shell).

I see it as an interactive feedback loop, in which we receive and transmit signals/information within a "mental soup" consisting of the thoughts, beliefs, and experiences of others. Similar to Jung's theory of the Collective Unconscious. We are domesticated primates for sure, but primates who are (at the quantum level) fractal energy patterns inter-connected within a holographic universe. Or so it seems to me.

]]>No-one's home, of course, if we believe that the "I" is an essence of a person that lives independent of the world. I don't buy into that absurd idea. I'm home, as a lived, active body in the world with historical traces and ambitions.

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